Hi everyone! My name is Gin. I have adhd. And I well, struggle to be connected with my kids. I love them both. But when they are not on point… I am triggered. And well, they are kids. They will not be on point. I feel my self behaving like my own mother and it baffles me because I never wanted to be like her. But here I am responding exactly like her. Being completely disengaged with them. I am like addicted to the phone. I avoid them. I think i subconsciously do this because I’m scared to mess up. My son is autistic. He has adhd, ODD, and who knows what else. He’s 8. he can tell by the tone of my voice that I’m frustrated by him. And it breaks my heart. I need help. I decided on Monday to break up with social media for a bit because it’s becoming toxic and well, I’m really not getting anything from it. My daughter craves my attention and she so deserves it. They both do. I don’t want to be my mom. I want to be better. I’ll take any advice since well, I’m addicted to the fucking phone. Please and thank you!